A passing thought.. June 24, 2009
Posted by sickscorpio in Personal.Tags: apathy, empathy, human behaviour, philosophy, second thoughts, Thoughts
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Thoughts
a fuckload of em
are hard to contain
or direct
they just flow
sumtimes they amaze
arouse
energize
but sumtimes
they just fuck u up
mess up the mind,
thinking of thoughts
is prolly worse,
I can’t imagine
all those philosophers
thinking about thought processes
they must have a fucked up life
nobody really cares
if you can see through
their expression of ideas
and opinions
they just blurt out
what comes to their minds
and are happy with that
the person who actually understands
is usually more hurt
sumtimes not just by the opinions
but the thought process
that churns em out,
what a waste of time
thinking about thoughts,
even worse is
writing about em,
most people are just animals
and to get along with beasts
u have to match the behaviour,
which sucks
when u know u can but don’t want to
cuz its stupid
being an animal urself
u have to dumb urself down
totally fucked up
not good at all,
come to think of it
must be miserable at times
being cursed with such ability
it’s kinda hard to impress
your own ideas
knowing others may not get em
when u know how their minds work
its like having everything
to kill an argument
but knowing they won’t accept it,
u get em
silenced, yes
converted, no
totally fucked up
so I guess
better to stop giving a fuck
and just blast it out
be the philosopher
but be the beast as well
cuz it may matter
only to people living after you
what you thought and said
but the beasts around u
understand one language alone
the one they speak
don’t worry about leaving a mark
u won’t be there to celeberate it
enjoy the fucking moment
take uncalculated risks
be the beast.
second thoughts
it feels bad
prolly cuz ur living around beasts
had u been living around a sensible kind
it might not have been a curse
but a blessing
right now, just go by first thoughts.
Could dark be this vivid? May 6, 2009
Posted by sickscorpio in Personal.Tags: dark, death, hope, life, Thoughts
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Talking to a Taxi driver today, about the situation in Karachi, I said “we all go to the graveyard empty handed”.
Right now, I feel, I have nothing, my hands are empty, perfectly eligible to die.
There are hopes, dreams, ambitions and grand plans on becoming better off than the rest, only to leave everything behind ultimately.
This darkness is pretty vivid.
Death does not frighten me.
Life doesn’t attract me.
It’ll be different tomorrow.
I’ll love life again.
And get busy to fill my hands with stuff that I ultimately have to leave.
Let it be so.
Its a bittersweet game and I’ll play on.
25 Random Things About Me! February 18, 2009
Posted by sickscorpio in Personal.Tags: about, fun, me, random, Thoughts
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01. I’m 25, I haven’t worked out properly for two years now and I still think I can go to the Olympics.
02. My rhetoric for improving the quality of the process (in whatever) sounds like ranting to other people.
03. I intend to start coding (software) as a hobby when I become a professional football player and have some some free time.
04. Generous when it comes to high value stuff, I tend to act mean about minor stuff like my cup, my pen and my Rubik’s cube.
05. I find Barrack and Michelle a sexier couple than Fatima Bhutto and George Clooney.
06. Pressing the snooze button thrice before leaving the bed is a trademark.
07. This monitor is giving me a headache.
08. The best thing about typing kicks is they fly like a bicycle and land like a fish.
09. I plan to marry as soon as the world comes to an end.
10. Science is beautiful.
11. You think I am, therefore you are.
12. Drinking is good for health.
13. Just crushed to death, the 3rd mosquito that inserted its proboscis into my arm and had prolly started sucking my precious blood.
14. I’m unique, just like everyone.
15. I want Anna (Ivanovic (k)) and Maria Kirilenko in doubles again.. plleeeeeeeeease…
16. God is real, unless declared integer.
17. There has to be fast forward or a rewind button in life to get you through now.
18. I’ld love to add to the gene pool except that I’m afraid my species might take over the world.
19. Five days shalt thou labour, as the Bible says. The seventh day is the Lord thy God’s. The sixth day is for football. No exceptions!
20. correction: Drinking is great for health, as long as it keeps you sane.
21. Last night the creative juices were flowing and (not but,) today I am merely a vast wasteland of random thoughts.
22. If I were born 5000 years ago, you’ld not be reading this.
23. My other ‘25 Things About Me’ note is more humorous, but you only get to read one per year.. poor you.
24. “Dress sense” is a phrase you use to make me look stupid.
25. Those are my principles, and if you don’t like them…well, make an exception..
Back to life! October 17, 2008
Posted by sickscorpio in Blogroll, Intelligentia, Personal, Uncategorized.Tags: blessings, determination, life, Positivity, rough times, shortcomings, talents, Thoughts
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I just had a couple of posts that made me look like some stupid psycho introvert; something I’m NOT! I have a wonderful set of friends and a really diverse life.
So, I’m just gonna count the good things in my life and then tell you the secret of my survival through the bad times! Not because I want to teach you but just to remind myself of what clicks for me.
The good stuff:
- I understand science better than a lot of people (and find it fascinating).
- I am not dogmatic (or GOD-matic for that matter) .
- I do not stereotype.
- I have a wonderful set of great friends: muslims, hindus, christians, athiests, agnostics and what not.
- I have an affinity for literature.
- I can speak, read and write multiple languages and have experienced multiple cultures.
- I enjoy multiple sports (and participate as well).
- I am doing good.
- I am healthy.
What else would someone want?
Here’s what I don’t have at the moment and really want:
- A mate (FYI: I’m straight!).
- A lot of money to help myself and help others (not that I’m not doing it already).
- A lot of time to restart regular training (to be able to compete in sports again: am a former champ!).
- And a lot of time to explore the world!
So, as for as myself is concerned, I’m good (!! can get better). Here’s what keeps me going when it gets tough.
My secrets:
- Running away doesn’t solve the problem. But sometimes its important to realize that you just can not solve it: thats when I choose to ignore and strive to find ways of damage control and damage avoidance. Every problem has a life and sometimes its better to wait for it to die (reading b/w the lines eh?).
- Know that you are good and your presence in the world counts. When you die, that’s one less good person around. Fight for your right, be stubborn, and know that at the end of the day you remain an individual, who carries the blame for his shortcomings.
Look back:
My last two posts clearly show how bad I felt about some stuff and in a way took the responsibility for not being positive. My bad. The hallmark of an optimist is that he’ll never blame himself (which I don’t exactly like). But that brings me to the most important thing I need to keep reminding myself of:
- Never go to war with yourself.
Life is a continuos process and sometimes the ride gets rough. One just needs to take the best possible approach, stay flexible and reasonable, to guarantee a satisfying end.
Aufwiedersehen!
