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Loss and Repentance.. August 29, 2008

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So it came to pass,
we were together,
although briefly,
but it changed me,
you changed me!

It felt beautiful,
and even though it hurts now,
the pain is different,
as long as there’s hope..

I was stupid,
I was wrong,
I still am,
But I want you back,
Come back..
or take your memories away,
you can’t,
and I can’t let go..

you made me feel,
and these feelings will kill me now,
Its not life without you,
There’s nothing without you,
come back..

I don’t have the courage,
to speak to you,
having ignored you,
having ignored my love for you,
having been so restrictive of myself,
having chained myself with stupidity..

but you can feel me,
you are kind,
and forgiving…
feel my pain,
come back..

Come back!

How do you lose someone, who never was yours!
How do you cry for someone, who never laughed with you!
How do you long for someone, who never was with you!

Life Update.. July 15, 2008

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The other day I met some college friends. We chatted about the good old days and where everyone was. Then we talked about everybody’s love interests and affairs, old and new. As the chit chat continued we went from subject of friends and family to religion and then to men and women. Untill one of the guys said something like women are weaker than men.
Now, I’m not someone who goes around looking for argument but this just put me off. When I asked him how he thought women were weaker or inferior to men, he started with physical attributes and concluded with ‘god says so’. He than presented the age old circular logic, prophet said that god said so and the prophet was right cuz god said so in holy book and the holy book is right cuz prophet said it’s word of god and god’s word could never be wrong.
I ended it with a piece of advice for my friends. I asked ‘em to read some science stuff and try to judge the religious stuff using plain common sense. And they advised me not to indulge in such arguments as it would not just guarantee me a ticket to hell but also might be physically dangerous to me if some hardliners got to know of my stance.

On another note,
My table-tennis is getting better. I’m having trouble with smashing the ball and picking up quick returns, but I guess it’ll get sorted if I keep playing consistently.

On yet another note,
I have had a couple of days of nostalgia as I’ve been thinking a lot about someone I came to really like. I (will continue to) love her and wish her a great life with or without me.

On yet yet another note,
I downloaded and watched some amazing talks off ted{dot}com. I particularly loved Dr. Dawkins, Dennet and Hawking’s talks. But every speaker was amazing in her/his own right. If you have some time and a fair enough bandwidth, do check em out.

So, life’s great, work’s great as well, table tennis is fun, ignorance and religious fundamentalism is rampant and her thoughts are like fresh breeze yet melancholic.

Auf Wiedersehen,

Love and Loyalty June 6, 2008

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Both make us gravitate towards another human (or authority). Both depend on two main factors:
1)Dependence and 2)Respect
Of the two factors, Dependence is the one that contributes majorly towards creating a feeling of Love or Loyalty. While respect plays a minor complimentary role.
We humans are probably the most selfish yet self-glorifying of all organisms. We give dignifying names to results of our basic instincts. It is probably the most important thing to us that we survive and as easily as possible at that. We store food and plan for future, we create partnerships and allegiances to ensure that our profits are maximised and we have an intangible insurance policy.
As long as someone can provide us with something we need, whether money, space or social standing, in return for something that they want us from us, we stay with them. We swear allegiance. In short, we remain loyal.

But its not just the material stuff that we depend on others for. We carry emotions and we share them. We react emotionally to stuff and people. And we sometimes depend emotionally on other people. People who simply allow us to express our emotions and care to listen to whatever we have to say. We like such people. We hang on to them. We even sacrifice, when needed, only to make sure we have a shoulder to cry on, and to have someone who can take care of us, emotionally. We call it love.

Loyality and Love, both stregthen as dependence increases and weaken as dependence is reduced. Both are considered honourable if the element of respect for the person/authority remains high. However lack of repect doesn’t result in complete lack of loyality (or love) but lack of dependence pretty much throws loyalty out of the window. And similarly, presence of respect doesn’t make us love or be loyal to someone, dependence does.

We are humans, mere selfish machines. Survival is our supreme desire and we do anything for it.  Yet we consider ourselves high moral beings, yet our morality is as volatile as they come. Probably, for our own good.

KISS!, Just Kiss! March 13, 2008

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    When passion takes a grip, a kiss locks two humans together in an exchange of scents, tastes, textures, secrets and emotions. We kiss furtively, lasciviously, gently, shyly, hungrily and exuberantly. We kiss in broad daylight and in the dead of night. We give ceremonial kisses, affectionate kisses, Hollywood air kisses, kisses of death and, at least in fairytales, pecks that revive princesses.Lips may have evolved first for food and later applied themselves to speech, but in kissing they satisfy different kinds of hungers. In the body, a kiss triggers a cascade of neural messages and chemicals that transmit tactile sensations, sexual excitement, feelings of closeness, motivation and even euphoria.

Not all the messages are internal. After all, kissing is a communal affair. The fusion of two bodies dispatches communiqués to your partner as powerful as the data you stream to yourself. Kisses can convey important information about the status and future of a relationship. So much, in fact, that, according to recent research, if a first kiss goes bad, it can stop an otherwise promising relationship dead in its tracks.

Silent chemical messengers called pheromones could have sped the evolution of the intimate kiss. Many animals and plants use pheromones to communicate with other members of the same species. Insects, in particular, are known to emit pheromones to signal alarm, for example, the presence of a food trail, or sexual attraction.

Whether humans sense pheromones is controversial. If pheromones do play a role in human courtship and procreation, then kissing would be an extremely effective way to pass them from one person to another. The behavior may have evolved because it helps humans find a suitable mate—making love, or at least attraction, quite literally blind.

Good Chemistry
Since kissing evolved, the act seems to have become addictive. Human lips enjoy the slimmest layer of skin on the human body, and the lips are among the most densely populated with sensory neurons of any body region. When we kiss, these neurons, along with those in the tongue and mouth, rocket messages to the brain and body, setting off delightful sensations, intense emotions and physical reactions.

To the extent that kissing is linked to love, the act may similarly boost brain chemicals associated with pleasure, euphoria and a motivation to connect with a certain someone. In 2005 anthropologist Helen Fisher of Rutgers University and her colleagues reported scanning the brains of 17 individuals as they gazed at pictures of people with whom they were deeply in love. The researchers found an unusual flurry of activity in two brain regions that govern pleasure, motivation and reward: the right ventral tegmental area and the right caudate nucleus. Addictive drugs such as cocaine similarly stimulate these reward centers, through the release of the neurotransmitter dopamine. Love, it seems, is a kind of drug for us humans.

Kissing has other primal effects on us as well. Visceral marching orders boost pulse and blood pressure. The pupils dilate, breathing deepens and rational thought retreats, as desire suppresses both prudence and self-consciousness. For their part, the participants are probably too enthralled to care.

Despite all these observations, a kiss continues to resist complete scientific dissection. Close scrutiny of couples has illuminated new complexities woven throughout this simplest and most natural of acts—and the quest to unmask the secrets of passion and love is not likely to end soon. But romance gives up its mysteries grudgingly. And in some ways, we like it like that.

Note: Above piece is a subjective summary of the article in the Scientific American.
The original article is available @ http://www.sciam.com/article.cfm?id=affairs-of-the-lips-why-we-kiss

Love.. March 12, 2008

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“Somebody To Love”

Can Anybody Find Me
Somebody to love?
Each morning i get up i die a little
Can’t barely stand on my feet

Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord, what you’re doing ro me
I have spent all my years in believing you
But i just can’t get no relief, lord

Somebody, somebody
Can anybody find me someone to love
I work hard everyday of my life
I work till i ache my bones

At the end i take home my
Hard earned pay ail of my own
I get down on my knees and i start to pray
‘Til the tears run down from my eyes, lord

Somebody, somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love
Everyday i try and i try
But everybody want to put me down

They say i go’in crazy
They say i got a lot of water in my brain
Got no common sense
I got nobody to believe

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Ooh, somebody
Somebody can anybody find me
Somebody to love

Got no feel, i got no rhythm
I just keep losing my bear
I’m ok, i’m alright
Ain’t gonna face no defeat

I just got ta get out of this prison cell
One day i’m gonna be free, lord
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to tove

Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love

Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Somebody, somebody, somebody, somebody

Somebody find me somebody
Find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me
Somebody to love

Find me somebody to love!
Find me somebody to love!
Find me, find me, find me, find me.

Another beautiful song.